. . .ya Allah, i'm smiling :') . . .

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

ya Allah, it's quite a long period when i didn’t feel da real pleasure of smiling. 

Now, i'm smiling n luv it so much.

 i promise 2 myself not 2 cry over da problem i'm facing right now anymore.

 At dis moment, i notice there is still a wonderful life with me. 

i'm amazed on how u created dis life 2 make da humans happy.

Last night when i look deeply at da charming bright stars floating in da sky,

 i can feel something special dat You gave me.

 Yep, i sense Your luv in my heart. 

 i didn’t even realize it was there anymore but actually, it is. 

i can feel dat You r always with me no matter wat. 

n dat feeling juz make me smile again. :')

yaAllah, tqs for accompanying me wen i'm alone. 

tqs 4 alwayz listening 2 me when i'm sad. 

tqs 4 understanding me when i'm disappointed.

 tqs for hugging me when i lose hope.

 tqs for alwayz holding my hands tightly 2 show me da way where i suppose 2 go on.

 tqs 4 never living me alone at my wits’ end.

 tqs 4 never turn Your back on me even when i turn my back on You.

 And finally, tqs 4 everything..

ya Allah, after You allow me 2 choose wat i wanted, 

You let my heart began 2 accept da reality dat is happening around me. 

tqs 4 helping me 2 choose my right decision cuz after dat, 

i began 2 start putting a hepi smile on my face.

ma n ayah, u alwayz try yr best 4 my goodness

 ‘til i dunno how 2 tq both.

 Sori if i had make yr heart broken 4 not listening 2 yr opinion. 

i knw im a quite hard-headed person.

 i’m deadly soriii 4 dat. 

After dis, i’ll b alwayz ready accepting watevr from u both.

 ya Allah, plez forgive all of my sins n my parents too.

 n plez do love them as how they loved me wen i’m little.

Mr Suhaimi,
 yesterday i jz told u dat i feel like wanted 2 go 2 da moon 

n shout 2 everyone dat im smiling.

 Well, glad 2 say dis 2 u…

im on da moon now n of course im totally blissful. :)

Mr Suhaimi,
 tqs 4 giving me strength 2 continue my life no matter how hard it is.

 i know u r quite unhappy 2 knw i was depressing yesterday. 

Anyway, let’s 2gether smile now bcoz now im.

Mr Suhaimi,
 tqs 4 yr believing.

 u’ve pray 4 me n trust me dat i can bring myself wherever i go. 

take gud care of bisnes n i hope 4 u da best, InsyaAllah..

 4 yr information, now im smiling 2 my ears.

Finally, 2 those who evr pray 4 me, worried bout me, 

or gave me force 2 face my life though its juz a little even i didn’t notice it, 

tqs a lot 4 being nice 2 me.

 i’ll remmber yr kindness as long as i live, insyaAllah..

nota kaki :

alhamdulillah, semakin hari sy semakin kuat, insyaAllah. :)